On Mother-Baby connections…

I read this article a few days ago doing my usual morning net surf. Started this post then, but wasn’t sure where to go with it.

Then yesterday, I had this little moment with Jude.  Jude is my youngest child and will turn five in a week.  Five.  When he was born, in my mind I saw him as a middle child of five kids.  I figured I would have at least two more babies before I turned 40 and then Mac and I would have to work hard at natural family planning in order to enjoy those retirement years in peace.  Haha, right?

Jude became the youngest of four when we brought Tristan into our lives.  Then last summer, after 4 years, we found out we were pregnant again.  I was thrilled.  A little worried as well, because we have come to rely on my salary more than we should and taking time off for a baby would be hard, but we had 8 months to save money and be ready.  Only five weeks into the pregnancy, however, I miscarried.

Walking to work yesterday, I thought about my youngest son who has gotten so big.  And then my thoughts turned to the baby that we lost.  He would be a few weeks old now.  I was profoundly sad at never getting to know him and at the idea that my body may be done having babies.

Then I thought about the article.  About how that little baby is still with me.  In my MARROW.  The idea takes the phrase “flesh of my flesh and bone of my bone” to a whole new level.  Each baby that I have is with me still.  The thought made me wonder at the world we live in – how little we understand it – how amazing our bodies and our connections to each other are.

 

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  1. Stephanie

     /  June 25, 2014

    Hello! I just started listening to your podcast a couple of months ago and I’m up to 249! Unfortunately I can’t figure out how to leave u feed back other than here. I feel like u must have an email or SOMETHING but for whatever reason I can’t find it now that I want to use it. ANYWAY.
    A comment on Sam being upset about wanting to be unique(have super powers) : you mentioned to him becoming a priest and later he said he won’t have super powers but in a way don’t our priests have super powers? They are the only ones with the “power” to absolve our sins and consecrate The Host. Our priests are the only ones who can provide us with The Bread of Angels. That’s a pretty super “power”. And I think I remember you mentioning that Sam is VERY aware of the opposite sex, so maybe celibacy isn’t a calling for him, but with great power comes great responsibility! :-)
    Love your podcasts! Thanks so much!

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